Here goes nothing!!

Hello!! This is my first post ever!!! I'm not so sure about this so please bear with me! I have been having a rough few weeks with school, personally, and spiritually. God has been soo good to me but all I can feel right now is abandonment. Not necessarily from Him but from people in my life. It is not their fault and I am soo happy that the Lord has made clear to them where they need to be but it is still hard to have said goodbye to two wonderful families that have mentored me and become part of my family in the past two years and now having to prepare to say goodbye to another mentor of mine who will be moving in December. I have to learn to trust God and that He will bring me through this and help me find another mentor. However, as much as I know this I am still struggling to accept it and fully trust in the Lord.

As far as school goes I am drowning in school work and tests. I have three midterms, two papers, four online homework assignments due all in the next two weeks. I like always have procrastinated to the point where I am soo overwhelmed. I need to get my life in order and stop just thinking everything will work itself out! I need to be proactive in my game plan!

I am on week eight of Jenny Craig now and have 14 pounds! This is incredible and I am very proud of myself, but I just hope I can keep it up and stay motivated! I am soo thankful for all of my friends and family that have been so supportive of everything I do and for always being there for me no matter what. I miss my friends who are far away and who are super busy and am just feeling a little bogged down today! I don't know if its the fact that it is like Day 14 of clouds and rain or if I am just not spending enough time with the Lord! I think it is both!! So I am going to stop and go spend some wonderful time in the Lord's word and see if I can accept the fact that I am In the Grip of Grace!!!